Should it be??

Why blame on someone when one person being hurt? Isn't it that if that person is the person you love being hurt means that you are not good in taking care of her? Maybe sometime the other people might indirectly hurt him/her but don't you think that, not everyone will be pleased and to please others... Things might not as what you see, a person with some mental illness being challenge and they get to become more negatively and might even kill themselves. Yet, do anyone care about the person whom had challenge the "sick one" ??
The challenger might have their own problems that no one can help them to solve and indirectly without knowing it they'd make the "sick one" to be more suffer yet... Do the one who blame on the person know what had happened to them?
Answer is always 'NO'. Why does this always happened in human life? Can't human be more open mind and think of the both side, not only those they love?

When a person being blame, what will they do? Do they know? First of all they already heart broken and yet being hurt another time so it will be doubled the pain... Once they can't bare of the pain anymore, they will start to doing the negative things. However, please before blaming someone understand their situation first. Things might not going well as how we wish it will be...
Things are uncertainty.... REMEMBER...

There's nothing is certainty, the only certainty is uncertainty

Cry...

Does cries really help to release from stress and tension??? It's too hard to have far relationship. Loving someone who's staying far away from us will only have some gap between the two person. Recently I'd been crying a lot. If I can collect tears into pails, I think by now I should have at least a full pail of tears. It's really hurt when your love one started not been doing like usual... treating us is just like how he treating others... That day I told him that he controls my life too much, it gave me stress... Now, I really wish that he controls me and care more about myself....
Is it really that when a heart has broken, it will never recover? Is it true that once a heart had been broken, it will easily broken for the following times???

Darling, do you know that my heart had broken? Do you know that I'm terribly hurt? The only thing that i really want to know, is that you really love me and will protect me from any pain and being hurt? But WHY??? Why I'd been hurt again and again???

It should be a happy or sad day???

Today, as usual, mom woke me up at around 7am as I told I got something on at around 8.30am... I woke up but still lying at bed messaging with him until around 8.15am I started to wake up from my bed and wash my face. Then, eventually I switched on the computer and started playing games. At around 9am, I recieved a sms from my friend who supposed be at my house at 8.30am. The sms is "Morning, wake up liao ma?" Then at that time, I started my work and printed the letters I need. At around 11am he told me the he will arrived here, Teluk Intan in another hour. I started to worry that will make him wait... Then at about 12pm, he sms me again... And I replied and told him there's a bit more to finish. He told me that he already waited at there for about half an hour... At that time, I don't know what should I do. I'm stucked between my work and meeting him. Then I asked him to wait for about an hour more as I am spraying the letters. At first he told me that it's okay, I will wait here and u do ur work 1st. Then at about 12.30pm, I felt that he already started to lose temper. He told me that "If I felt extremely boring and can't stand anymore, I will just take bus go to Changkat Lada" At that time I really started to worry that I might can't meet him... I'd been missing him for fortnight and I really wish to meet him.

At 1pm, I got myself ready and went to meet him. Once we meet, I'd went to the Key Maker's shop to duplicate keys for mom. I can felt that he already started to dislike to wait and having anger. Then we walked around the clock tower and decided to sit at the park. We went to the park and sat at the bench doing nothing until around 2.30pm, we went to a restaurant to have some roti canai. After that, we went to Fajar as I'd promise my friend to help him to buy presents (photo frame). Once we stepped in fajar, I tried to walk as fast as possible so that I can out from that building as soon as possible. At first when I was picking the presents I saw him seeing some stuff there. Then when I went to the counter to pay, he already lost from my eye-sight. I tried to find him but I can't find him. So, as I walked towards the ground floor, I sms him and asking wherebout? He told me that he's at Aik Aik Complex. So I walked to there to find him. At there, I really dont know what to do... He go wherever he like, but I dont want to go that place. So I walked away... At that time, I really thought of I might going to cry as I am walking away... My heart really broken.... So hard to get to meet but why cant we just please each other???

Then we walked again to the bench at the park and have a seat there until about 4.30pm. Then we walked to the bus station to get bus ticket for him to go back to his home.

When I reached home, I really very sad...One of his sms saying that " I don't like today's meeting. It's not like usual. I can't feel any love from u"...... At that moment, my tears started rushing down and wet my face.

Usually we will keep on sms-ing each other until either one of us fall asleep.... But today, he sms "I wants to sleep already... Good night"...

As now, I felt so miserable... I dont know who to tell about all this. I can't share all my ups and downs with anyone... I felt so tensed up... All that I can do is just to keep it in my heart and keep telling myself please be patience, maybe tonight he really tired and want to have a good rest. I don't know... It's hard to pursuit ourselves to believe it... And now, I only can cry to myself.. Not in front of anyone... It's really hurt...