A very upset day....

Today, when ET came home, I saw him took the yogurt drink from the refrigerator. So I asked him whether did he asked mom but ended up he raise up the past issue....... He said that I brought back a guy home when mom is not around and did I asked mom about that? I was so sad and I told Ling but.......
At the end, he told me that he have to work so we stopped message but now is already 12.15am. I tried to message him and called him an hour ago but till now I still unable to get to him. Does he really care about me? I doubt he don't..... Am I really as her girlfriend?????????
Since what he told me last night, I doubt that should I trust him anymore???? He never told me the truth of anything about himself..... All the while, I'm the only person that telling him everything... Nowadays, he has a lot of works to do than before as he had a promotion... but not only his works changed, he also changed.... Since I told him about my feeling and after we met that day, he kept on asking me that do I really felt being neglect? Actually I do!!! You NEVER care about me....... Can't u just give me a message when u are going out of camp? Why must you off both of the phones? If u don't really like to on the phones, why u want to borrow my PDA????? Is it just because u want to show off to your friends??????????

The day of unimagineable......

Today just as plan I went to Manjung by bus around 8am and reached there about 10am and waited for ling about 10minutes. Then, he picked me with his friend's motorbike that he borrowed and we went to Lumut. We had our breakfast there and then he sent me back to TI straight away. We left Lumut at around 11.30 and reached TI at around 12.15pm. We went to that house after I take my bike from town.
We were ok at the beginning....... We did what we usually do. Then, at around 2pm he rushed to go back to camp. But that time, I was preparing to go back too.... My hair was tangled and I tried to comb back.... But he was rushing me to be fast... He was rushing and rushing... I asked him to go first but he refused and keep on rushing me... But does he know that actually he hurt me much? My heart was really pain.... Very pain... I can't imagine that he would scold me... I was very unhappy that time...... And I dropped my tears... I wished he will be more caring about me after this....