I'd delivered my baby on 5th of May. That day also is the day where I really hurted everyone that concerned about me. I delivered my baby at 11.50am and I'm out from the labour room around 1.30pm. All my family members that know were worrying about me at outside of the labour room. At out of sudden, Aunt Christine asked me why I still contact with him? They'd messaged him and asked him to come but all of his excuses were given. My heart was really pain and I don't know what to do. Since then, I never get any message from him and I don't even text him at all.
At around 7pm on the day I'd deliver, I went to the baby's room and asked form the nurse to see my baby. That was the time I really look at my baby. My own baby!!! But he will be giving away!
On the 7th of May, I'm allowed to go back home. It also the day I'm going to be apart with my baby boy. Once I wake up in the morning, I'm anxiously waiting for the time to pass. At 10am, I went to the baby room to see my baby but my baby have to put under the UV light due to the skin getting yellowish. So, I just able to see my baby that the eyes been warped. I'd waited for the whole day but still can't see my baby. I'd been waiting for the whole day for the person that going to adopt my baby to come to pay for my bills.
At around 4pm, I knew it. That's the lady that came to take my baby away. At first my room's door was keep open 'cause I wished to see the person that going to adopt my baby. Then, mom shut the door so that they can easily bring the baby out. So I peep from the window and I saw the nurse giving my baby to the lady in the car and I told mom. I knew that they will love him very much but I can't really bear the pain that my baby is leaving me.. I'd tried to not to cry but my tears just can't stop and keep on falling.
Yesterday I "curi-curi" read the messages between him and sis from my phone. And it really hurt me once again. Yesterday afternoon also I told mom that I wish to keep a photo of my baby but mom said just let it go and don't keep it anymore.
I don't know why but it really hurt my heart. I promised to myself from the day my baby left me, I'll changed and forget about the past. After this one month of time, I'll be having a new life.
Lastly, my baby will always in my heart and I will pray for him wishing he will be having a great health with a happy life.
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