The New Year Shock?

As usual every year of Chinese New Year, I'm staying at home... But don't know why this year I go find Alex and Kevin to yam cha... The day I went out dinner with Alex is ok but until after dinner we go a place sit and have some chat... Out of sudden he asked why we break up last 3 years ago and why cant i accept him? =.=" At that moment it really gave me a shock where i really cant thought of that he still cant let go of the relationship... I was thinking what did i done? Why the 2 guys are not willing to let me go just like that? But somehow i wish this doesnt really effect our friendship... After that, i went to kevin house to visit... then i did not tell him anything about it... I wish there's a friend for me to share with me all this... i doesn't want to keep all this by myself..... it's not easy for me..