hurt badly....

I don't really know what has happened recently... We had a fight. A bad fight that really hurt me more than everything.... I tried to call him two days ago... It was saturday around 7pm, he was charging his phone and he felt asleep... I don't really know whether he really meant to off his phone or is just because of the faulty of the phone's battery. So I was pissed off and i off my phone as well. But i can't imagine that i'd only off my phone for just that few minutes he told me that thing's that hard for me to listen to... he told me that he will stop working in the camp and leave this place... he will go far far away and not coming back.... All of this because of me leaving him... But he never knew that he hurt me much more...... sometimes i do think that should i continue living in this world? i dont really know what should i do to continue hold on in this world... Too much of stress that i'm having.... Why people's out there so nossy about others? So what to have a boyfriend that's different race's that i am? Why he never tried to understand me? Can't he just send me a message first? Why must I be the one waiting for nothing the whole day? I hope that this will end really soon.... Sometimes i doubt that do u still love me as how u use to be? Do u care for me as last time? I really dont know!!!! I'd lost..... I'd lost everything.... I hope that i'll lost memory as well... So that i can forget all the sad and unhappy things...... I don't know what to do anymore.... Can u help me to recover? Why u want to say that u're going to leave me and ur home forever? Do u know that u hurt me much? How could u expect me to forget about it? There's no way to forget..... This will continue in my mind till the end of my life....